Do you ever experience that feeling where you come to the end of something awesome, and when it’s over, you just can’t help but wonder how you went on without it? It’s like that situation, person, or place has a part of your heart and soul that you just never fully grasp until you’re reunited. You feel whole, complete, and all at once, everything in the world is good again.
This has been my current state after leaving home and my family for the next couple months finishing up a new semester of school. Life never seems to be the same when I am not with them, and I think that it’s because what we identify as our home becomes a symbol of who we are and how we see ourselves within the craziness of life. Home ignites hope, and in a life that seems to continually rain down the fear of tomorrow, my hope comes from those who make me feel complete, and excited for the adventures and memories that lay ahead.
I honestly feel like a little kid when I make statements about how much my family is my world, but is that really a bad thing? Sometimes being an adult makes finding the joy and happiness in the small things and in the closest relationships a really, really difficult task. Life sweeps you under your feet, and in the process, I know I often find that I lose part of myself when I get knocked down by trials, or hardships. But, after spending Christmas at home with those who I consider to be my “home” or hope, I have come to see that that’s the beauty in the concept of “home.” Not only is it a physical location, a place where you feel connected to, or one that is your safe haven from the harshness of the day-to-day living. Home is also people, those who either inhabit the physical location, or those who make anywhere home as long as you’re with them. Most of all, home to me is something that you create throughout the journey of life. When I was a little kid, I would have said that home is where you live, but as I have grown up, home has become more than a house. Home is happy. Home is hope, Home is ME. And by finding what my home is, I have found myself.